Christian and Jennifer Kay

I know it's been a few months since I have posted so here's a quick update: In August I went into pre-term and was put on bed rest until Connor was born. On November 27th he decided to make his appearance. Labor started at 5 am and he was born at 5:59 that night. Connor was 7 pounds 8 ounces and 19 inches long, a perfect little boy! He is a bundle of fun and we are enjoying every minute of parenthood!

Yesterday we went in for our ultrasound where baby's organs are checked to make sure they are working properly. His organs are looking great! The tech said he looks perfect and is growing right on time! Connor weighs 15 oz. now :) The tech also told us that I have a heart shaped uterus... After I was told this I started researching it online to see what all that means for us. A lot of it was that the baby comes early because baby  doesn't have much room to move around like in a normal uterus, or that the baby comes c section because baby stays breech because he can't move much. Poor Connor is already looking cramped and we're just barely over half through the pregnancy :( On a good note though he is head down so hopefully he'll be able to stay like that so we won't have to consider a c section. I'm terrified to have  a c section! We'll see what happens though :)

For the 4th of July weekend Christian and I made a trip up to Yellowstone with his parents and my parents and sisters! We had a blast so here are some pictures :)

Well I'm sure many of you know already we're having a sweet little boy on the way! We have decided to name him Connor James! His middle name is after my grandpa Kerkman! We are so excited for our little man to be here :) Short post this time but I'll post more next time

Sorry that it has been an eternity since I've updated this darn thing :) just wanted to write and let everyone know that we are still going strong! The baby that decided to stay with us is still doing very well! At our last appointment baby was measuring 3 days ahead of time which is really good and that makes me happy cause that means I'm 14 weeks along today instead of Friday!! I know it's only a few days early but hey I will take it :) It might mean I'll get my little one a bit earlier :) We have another doctor appointment tomorrow bright and early... I'm not too excited to be up before the butt crack of dawn but I'll do it to be able to see my baby!
Christian and I haven't really down anything with the baby room just yet we decided to wait to find out what we're having first (only 2-4 weeks!!!!!!!!) I forgot to mention Christian recently received a promotion at work! He is now a back up lead which is basically a assistant supervisor! I'm so proud of him! He has been with America First for 3 years now and hasn't really moved up but now it has paid off for him!
Well that is all the updating I can do today I'll try to update more :)

Well we found out today that baby #1 has decided it was not ready to come to this earth. We're sad but baby #2 is still growing and is looking very healthy. It's a bittersweet moment because we really wanted to have twins but I am very happy that one of them is still healthy and growing like it should be.

Well as you guys read yesterday, I had another doctor's appointment and well we're not being blessed with just one baby but TWO little ones! Our Due date was also changed to December 2nd which is ok because that's only two days off from the original date :) Christian and I are so excited for these two little ones to he here lol and we're barely into the pregnancy!!! We still need thoughts and prayers with us because I am now considered a high risk pregnancy which scares me a little. I know these two sweet spirits will bring much needed joy to Christian and mine lives! Thank you to those who have kept us in your thoughts and prayers!! They really have been felt :)

I know a lot of you know already from Facebook, but Christian and I are FINALLY going to have a baby of our own in November!! We're so excited to welcome this sweet spirit into our home! We have waited so long for a child of our own and now it's finally happening. Our due date is November 30th as of right now ha ha we go to the doctor today to hear the heartbeat and get more measurements to get an exact due date for sure :) Wish me luck I'm super nervous that they won't find a heart beat or that the baby has stopped growing! Please still keep us in your prayers! Thank you!!!

On Friday night Christian and I made a mad dash to the ER at Mckay-Dee Hospital. While I was at work on Friday I started bleeding where I shouldn't be bleeding, so Christian rushed from work to come pick me up from work. We arrived at the Hospital at about 5:30 where we waited for about 15 minutes before they were able to get me into a bed. I was hooked up to an IV(which I am defiantly not a fan of) they took some blood work, then we waited, and waited.... and waited!! I swear it was an eternity before anyone would let us know what the heck was going on with me. Well, about 3 hours later they told us there was really nothing they could do for me other then waiting it out and seeing my regular doctor on Monday morning. They sent us home with no real info about what was wrong. So hopefully my doctor can give me some answers on Monday.

wow, I thought I getting better about updating my blog ha ha.... Guess not! well I will write a little update. On Monday April 4 my best friend was in town from Logan so we decided to go out to Salt Lake and wonder around the Gateway. We had lunch at Applebee's and just wondered ha ha. I really had no money to spend but it was still fun window shopping :) I hate that my best friend  lives in Logan because I never get to see her as often as I would like. I would post some pictures from our adventure but she has them on her camera ha ha so no pictures this time!

Well, here we are on the third day on the new medication... Yesterday wasn't as bad as the first day on it. I only had a mild headache and no mood swings :) I was pretty happy about that because I was at work last night and I  know I'd feel terrible if I blew up at one of my co-workers. I'm trying so hard to be positive about it, but it is so hard to at the moment. I have fears that this won't work or that will but will end in another miscarriage.. I'm so glad I have the friends and my wonderful husband that I do to lift me up when I am down. I owe a lot to the few friends who have been there for me, Listening when I needed an ear :) I love you all!

Well, today is day two of being on clomid. I am already experiencing some of the side effects of it like headaches and mood swings. Yesterday while we were at church I was having bad headaches it was so hard to concentrated on the lessons. I was also feeling extremely tired during Relief Society and was having a hard time keeping my eyes open. I'm not sure if being tired is a side affect yet, I haven't seen that it is on the internet but I wouldn't be surprised if it was lol. I was also having terrible mood swings! Christian would tell you how bad they were! He told me it was like I was the birth control pills all over again. I felt really bad for being such a grouch so I went and researched the side effects. When Christian saw it was partly the clomid that was making me this way he forgave me! I have such a wonderful and forgiving husband! I love him so much for being by my side through this trial in our life. With him by my side I know I'll be able to make it though. I just keep telling that it will all be worth it in the and that we will be parents whenever that time comes.

I am slowly losing my trust in the people around me. I tell people a secret that I felt comfortable telling because I trust them, then I get on Facebook and there is someone I know I didn't tell this secret to is asking me how it's going or if it is working... I mean come on!!! I just wish I can trust people more, but after this I'm not so sure I can.

As a lot of you know Christian and I have been trying to get pregnant for a year now with the result of one miscarriage and no luck ever since.. Well this post is going to be a venting post about people who don't realize how lucky they are to have babies or who are pregnant. Every time I turn around there is someone new pregnant, but instead of saying how blessed they feel they keep complaining about their pregnancy!! Each time I log onto Facebook there is always someone complaining how they can't sleep at night, they are always sick, back is always hurting or the baby is sitting in a place that isn't comfortable for them! Sometimes I just wanna write an email to tell them that they don't know how dang lucky they are to have all those pains and aches and still be able to bring a new life into this world! Most of these girls have never experienced the heart break of a miscarriage and sometimes I wish they did so they knew how i feel or all the other girls who can't get pregnant or having a hard time like Christian and myself... When I get pregnant you won't see me complain one bit about my pregnancy I'll just be so happy that I'll be able to have a little one of my own. But until It's my turn I'll put on the fake smile and act like nothing is bothering me. I'm sorry if this post offends anyone, that is not my intention. I just needed to voice my thoughts and emotions for my benefit.

For our second anniversary we decided to get our pictures done. We hadn't had them done since our Wedding ha ha! Here are a few of them

Well we are now in our house and trying to finish the unpacking process! We're so happy to finally be in our house. We didn't have much help moving in, but we had both our families there and my best friend Ashley! I don't know how we would have moved without all their help, they are all fantastic! Christian and I realized the other the day, it has been over one year since we've lived on our own! That's way too long for a still newly wed couple :) It's been a fun but long adventure that I'm hoping we won't have to go on again for a very long time! Now we have been told it is now time to fill the house with little grandbabies for my mother in law and my mama ha ha :)
Will post pictures once I get the house turned right side up again :)

Well, as of right now we might be closing on the 19th of November Thanks to Academy Mortgage! That's right we decided to tell a certain bank to suck it and took our business else where! We met with the mortgage lady last night and she made us extremely happy when she told us there was a good chance she could have our loan closed by the 19th!! We are so excited!! We thought for sure it was going to be another 30 or so days, but since we basically had everything done with the other place they said it would take two weeks at the most!! I can't believe this journey that we've been on to get our house! I know it'll all be worth it in the end, but until then I'll still be stressing until those papers are signed and I'm in my house!!!